What the hell am I saying here?

It’s hard for me to comprehend as well, probably because, as a person who has suffered from infant separation, I’m at a significant disadvantage.

Let me first explain a few things.

Universal consciousness

Universal consciousness is a state of awareness in which the individual consciousness becomes one with the universe. Universal consciousness is sometimes called the universal mind, especially in non-yoga contexts. It is what connects all existence. In yoga, it is the true Self, which transcends space and time.

Spiritual Awakening

Spiritual Awakening is a simultaneous increase of Expanding Consciousness that occurs when our spiritual-energetic bodies connect into our physical bodies. Enlightenment is the “full comprehension of a situation”. In the Western world, the concept of enlightenment in a religious context acquired a romantic meaning. It has become synonymous with self-realisation and the true self, which is regarded as a substantial essence that can be corrupted by social conditioning.

The Illusion of Separation

Candace van Dell (Spiritual Coach, Author, Speaker) – Contributor for Huffpost suggests “The illusion of separation is what continues to keep us away from our authentic self. We see others as more powerful or less worthy but it is all just a mirror of our need to maintain the false self. I became free of the illusion when I reclaimed those parts of myself I left behind as a little girl. This was never anything broken that needed to be fixed, just something hurting that needed to be healed. The belief in lack, as well as the belief in grandeur, are what keep us in the illusion of being separate from others and reflect the separation we have feared within ourselves.”

From an article by EP McKnight, MEd (actress and writer) – How the Virtual Play is the New Way for the New Day

Social isolation breeds separation but not virtually. Staying connected is paramount because we are all in this together. There are many ways of staying together and being in touch without being in the same space or the same proximity as another. Many are seeking ways to stay in touch with families, friends and business-wise globally.

Being socially isolated doesn’t mean you can not connect with others, just that a new way of connecting is more readily available. Many of these ways to connect are right at your fingertips.

From a spiritual and social standpoint, they’re both partially incorrect and here’s why…

Infant Separation

A sudden and lasting separation from a parent can permanently alter brain development and structure. So to say that there was “never anything broken” does not apply. At birth, the brain is the most underdeveloped organ in our body. It takes up until our mid-20s for our brains to fully mature. Any serious and prolonged adversity, such as a sudden, unexpected and lasting separation from a caretaker is extremely bad, and unexpected and lasting separation from the inherent connection to a biological mother is 100 per cent catastrophic. One changes the structure of the developing brain over a short space of time. The other changes the structure of the developing brain, breaking it instantaneously. Separation damages a child’s ability to process emotion and leaves scars that are profound and lifelong. If these issues are left untreated or ignored the issues and related traumas multiply and increase in intensity.

Bessel van der Kolk pointed this out in his book “The Body Keeps the Score” it seems so obvious; mothers and the primary caregivers around a child are the sources of safety and security in the normal course of events.

“Being able to feel safe with other people is probably the most important aspect of mental health; safe connections are fundamental to meaningful and satisfying lives.” 

Bessel van der Kolk 

Take adoption, for example, the current most prominent social narrative believes that a child does not remember anything, yes this may be true however their bodies remember EVERYTHING! It just doesn’t end there, we have to ask how does this play out? As an adoptee separation breeds isolation, saying we are all in this together is a falsehood. Yes, I may be taking EP McKnight out of context however the reality is that in the era of covid, adoptees have had to deal with isolation and separation for multiple decades or more, rather than multiple years without acknowledgement of their true experience while being gaslit by society.

Adoption is the legal enforcement of social distancing from kin for life.

It seems like any time adoptees want to know their first family or learn about the birth culture they came from, it can turn into a sense of betrayal. Like They’re supposed to choose between this life that they were born into and the life they were adopted into on top of dealing with the ongoing effects and trauma of separation. This severing is so abrupt that the adoptee loses all sense of who they are, who they were meant to be and who they were supposed to be without any prior recognition or reference. Many seeking to connect are completely lost. Lost in their identity, lost in their trauma and lost in their ability to assimilate into society.

Adoptees can literally write the bible about separation. If adoption truly existed for the best interest of the child, money would not be involved, secrecy would never be encouraged, identities would never be changed, records would never be sealed, reunification would always be first priority and society would listen to those who are most affected, adoptees.

In all this, adoptees simply aren’t given the space, understanding or support to fully come to terms with what has happened to them. Before you say “but way about …” The standard orphan argument just doesn’t stack up. Reuters notes a statistic that “An estimated 8 million children live in orphanages and other institutions worldwide, but 80 per cent are not orphans”. Also, history is full of failed horrific social experiments of witch babies are separated from their heritage through illegal adoptions and in some cases killed. For example:

Bon Secours Mother and Baby Home

Canadian First Nation Sixties Scoop

Forced adoption – UK & Australia

Oranga Tamariki Baby Uplifts – New Zealand

Tennessee Children’s Home Society – USA

Just to name a few, many other countries such as India, Russia, Spain, the EU & parts of Asia also participate in similar ways. There are still residual social mechanisms at play that focus on the continuation of separation for the benefit of fulfilling eogic needs rather than focusing on assisting people in need to find and come to peace with their truth. It’s obvious there is a worldwide denial of the hidden war against mother and child.

“The abuse and subjugation of women and girls is the most pervasive and unaddressed human rights violation on Earth.”

Former US President Jimmy Carter


Perennialism is a perspective within the philosophy of religion that views each of the world’s religious traditions as sharing a single, universal truth on which foundation all religious knowledge and doctrine have grown. According to this view, each world religion, including but not limited to Christianity, Islam, Judaism, Hinduism, Taoism, Confucianism, Shinto, Sikhism, and Buddhism, is an interpretation of this universal truth adapted to cater for the psychological, intellectual, and social needs of a given culture of a given period of history.

Ascension & Enlightenment

“People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”

Carl Jung

Ascension or enlightenment is typically known as the dissolution of the ego. Ego death is the full understanding and letting go of all addictions, attachments and bonds in this life. Adoption creates various embedded attachment issues immediately from birth. The classic “Seven Core Issues in Adoption,” published in the early 1980s, outlined the seven lifelong issues experienced by all members of the adoption triad: loss, rejection, guilt and shame, grief, identity, intimacy, and mastery/control.

For an adoptee to achieve enlightenment they must deal with the karma offloaded on to them from their biological family and face their own personal diaspora. This makes it virtually impossible to active equanimity because they are mentally, emotionally and socially stuck in a perpetual state of fight or flight.

How are adoptees supposed to face their imposed karma and process trauma while being expected to perpetuate a lie in order to keep others happy?

As far as the question… “Is separation an illusion from the eyes of an infant facing trauma?” The answer. No!

Trauma can seriously disrupt important aspects of development and connection leaving the child so shocked and frozen that it’s almost impossible to recover. Adoptees have no reference to a previously experienced “Normal State”. They face THE MOST horrendous experience an infant could ever experience Immediately at birth freezing them in their developmental tracks, shattering their “reality” forever. Awakening only comes after their world falls apart yet again years later IF they question what has happened to them in order to heal. During this time it’s extremely common for the very people tasked with looking after them to abandon them because they just don’t want to hear it. Ultimately creating a new reality they simply can’t continue to live in.

Can you imagine trying to resolve that?


The Stewardship Model offers a safe warm, loving support family with “CONTINUITY” in relationships for a lifetime.

Stewardship respects a child’s identity. The stewardship model supports family contact and arbitrates for it and does not rely on the goodwill of the parties involved. The Stewardship family does not try to replace the child’s family. The stewardship model does not change the child’s true Identity. A stewardship model does not cancel the child’s Original Birth Certificate. A stewardship model does not produce a new Birth Certificate that states non-biological people gave birth to them. A stewardship model offers a lifelong warm and loving supportive family that does not try to graft the child onto a genetic stranger’s family tree. A stewardship model does not change the child’s name. A stewardship model would introduce Welfare checks to be carried out on all care for children in private homes.

More information here

Adoptees require complete understanding, time, more time, and a safe space to fully process their trauma, be it in an understanding family, or in society in general, preferably both. Anything less is psychosocial abuse that guarantees a complete disenfranchisement and disconnection from society itself.

Recommended Reading and Listening

Audio & Book
Audio & Book
Audio Book

On the path of awakening or Spiritual Ascension, the first stages for spiritual healing include emotional and mental body clearing of these accumulated Soul memories that are recorded from both the patriarchal and matriarchal lineages of a persons Family and Origin. When we observe trauma events and behaviours from current and past timelines, we can choose to heal these patterns through unconditional love and forgiveness in order to heal these cellular memories in our body and remove the blockages and negative effects they create. The process of active conscious participation with addressing emotional, mental and spiritual clearing phases is called Genetic Pathcutting.

What is a Genetic Pathcutter?

A Genetic Pathcutter is an incarnation of a soul that comes into being to rewrite corrupted biological and DNA imprints. Each specific incarnation contract requires various levels of ancestral clearing which releases old cellular patterns held within current and higher dimensions simultaneously.

What is Ancestral Clearing?

Ancestral clearing is a type of energy healing based on the belief that what our ancestors did during their lives, creates some sort of energy grid that affects their descendants’ happiness, health, prosperity, and relationships. Ancestral clearing can transform the negative energy created by our ancestors so that it no longer blocks our progress in this or future lives.

Childhood Trauma and early ego and identity development. 

Our chakra system functions in layers.  Similar to Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, the lower chakras must be properly developed and functioning in order for the higher chakras to develop correctly. Each stage builds upon the previous one, carrying the distortion of a failed challenge to the next stage, affecting how we are able to handle it, and thus, how our psyche forms. The chakra system forms in just the same way and in a similar timeline.  By looking at each of these life stages, we can see where our energy became blocked in that chakra and move toward healing and reforming that energy system. 

Maslow’s hierarchy of needs

As infants, we are born into the first chakra. 

The Root Chakra is associated with the colour red and is the first task we undertake after birth, and that is to determine “Do I belong here?” …on this Earth and in this family system. It is not a conceptual question based on (thinking) cognition. It is instinctual.

This is the chakra that controls our animal nature and is governed by the predominant survival sense of smell, then taste. This is the very primitive sensing of the world that a newborn infant engages in, commonly called “rooting” as the baby, through its mouth and sense of smell, turns her/his head, ’rooting’ around, and sensing her/his way to food. Over time if this primal survival need is met, the infant will move directly to the object without searching. and the infant found his/her first primitive affirmation that he/she does belong in this world and that survival will be supported.

When you consider psychologist Erik Erickson’s stages of development, the first stage—trust versus mistrust—is closely related to Root chakra development. As an infant, if your caregivers consistently provided you with what you needed to survive (food, water, love, affection, and emotional calm), then you felt secure in the world.   You felt that the world was a place that could be trusted to provide for your basic needs. However, if your environment was chaotic and/or caregivers emotionally unavailable to you and/or if your caregivers withheld, delayed, or were inconsistent in giving you what you needed, then you will lack trust and security, and may find yourself with Root chakra imbalance or blockages. Whether or not you feel secure now is significantly impacted by how safe you felt as a small child.

As we develop naturally without trauma, we should pass through the remaining chakras.  

The sacral chakra, also knowns as the second chakra, is located two inches below your belly button and is represented by the colour orange. “This chakra governs your emotions, your creativity, sensitivity, sexuality, intimacy, emotional well-being, and self-expression.

The Solar Plexus, or Manipura, refers to the third chakra. It spins in the area around the abdomen above the belly button up to the breastbone. Meaning “lustrous gem” in Sanskrit, the Manipura chakra provides a source of personal power and relates to self-esteem, warrior energy, and the power of transformation.

And so it goes through each Chakra.

The effects and Imprints of Separation

It is well known that the seven most painful imprints of separation that impact the socially oppressed human beings are:

1. Unworthiness / 2. Shame / Guilt 3. Lack of Trust / Self Doubt 4. Betrayal / Abandonment 5. Anger / Rage 6. Fear 7. Entrapment / Enslavement.

These traumas deeply embed themselves in the first 3 chakras and are not easily cleared through simple mantras or chakra cleansing exercises.  While we cannot choose our caregivers at such a young age, we can heal and acknowledge that aspect of our lives with deep inner work.  As long as the energy in our root chakra is blocked from consistent negative experiences in our infancy, then any work done on additional chakras will not be as beneficial.

Silent Weapons and Social Engineering

In short, the goal of Social Engineering is to exploit the subconscious of particularly vulnerable social groups and to instil emotional dependence onto those who have accumulated the most wealth and power. This gives the dominant party full control, allocating all resources available away from the very people who need them the most. 

Social Engineering is a type of Mind Control that seeks to manipulate people so that their specific social structure can be exploited by misinformation that is used to take control of their behaviours. The primary method is applied via bullying, intimidation and deception tactics through controlling perception and by generating personal or mass fears, real or imagined in their targets.

Images by Alex Grey

For example, the Mother and child diad.

The bond of mother and child diad extends far beyond the experience of motherhood. When the relationship between a mother and her children is promoted in multiple negative enforced identities dominated by patriarchy. The mother-child diad is devalued in many cultures, being a child-bearer or breeder entails a largely degraded and unpaid, denying women their full dignity and potential as human beings. 

In regards to child adoption and other forms of trauma-inducing social constructs, matriarchy is designed primarily to serve the interests of patriarchy to provide a successor or an heir while still servicing their own egocentric needs to be seen fulfilling the role. If affected by unresolved traumas such as infertility, women participate in creating a new subclass of marginalized and oppressed people, ie: Adoptees. Their self-serving needs force the creation of predictive programming, this is a subtle form of psychological conditioning and targeting of the subconscious with coded words and low frequencies, to enforce control.

Somehow there is an underground market for loosh, Moloch driven energies that subconsciously surface through current day social experiments such as adoption, child trafficking. If you don’t believe such things exist, you just have to look at what is going on in the world. The baby scoop era is exactly what it sounds like. Both Ireland and Canada have had thousands of infants murdered in the very institutions that were meant to protect them. 

I could go on for ages, especially now that Gov. Greg Abbott has signed into law one of the nation’s strictest abortion measures, banning the procedure as early as six weeks into a pregnancy.  The new law is considered one of the most extreme nationwide and the strictest in Texas since the landmark Roe v. Wade decision. This will have major implications in regards to forcing women into have their babies and putting them up for adoption.

“Our creator endowed us with the right to life and yet millions of children lose their right to life every year because of abortion,” Abbott said in a bill signing ceremony, captured on videos posted on social media. 

Here are some very important points regarding our “right to life”.

The current social “unicorn” narrative of adoption as it stands today does not align itself with the majority of lived experiences of adoptees. Being taken from a birth mother is THE WORST trauma a human being can experience.

Adoptees live their whole lives with the symptoms of C-PTSD and PTSD from the primal wound which leaves them with a debilitating fear of rejection and abandonment.

When a person has not had the opportunity to create or develop their core true self from birth, they have no sense of who they really are and what provides meaning and connection in their life. As a result, their first identity is marked null and void and a new official false identity is created where the new birth certificate not only gives them a new name but also states their adoptive parents are biological. This is the identity adoptees live with, a fractured identity where a fear-based belief system based on separation is immediately programmed and hardwired into their neurology at birth then reinforced by societies unwillingness to listen to their experiences. Effectively brushed off because of the belief that they won’t remember. True our frontal cortex may not remember the trauma but our limbic system certainly does.

We are stripped of all reference of our inner child, we instinctively feel the missing role of a biological and spiritual ethnically connected parent. Our trauma radiates the need for protection and support. Without the connection to this instinctual love and kindness, our hearts tell us, how we now exist in a world of separation. Leaving us extremely vulnerable, drawing in people who are all too willing to bypass having to deal with their own biological trauma and use us as a form of personal healing. It is possible to raise a healthy adoptee, but to do so, adoptive parents must be willing to embrace their individual stories. Even the parts that challenge their deepest insecurities such as infertility.

Medically Speaking

Even if, as infants, we had the ability to remember the separation, the trauma is so severe that the memory would be repressed.

During pregnancy, specifically, mothers mistreated in institutions prior to birth faced unfathomable cruelty, that is only now being acknowledged! The stress and trauma in facing the prospect of losing their baby for life their own unique trauma both affects them deeply for life and also mutates the pregnant mothers Mitochondrial DNA and in turn the babies. Lead (Pb) crosses the placenta and can cause oxidative stress, which introduces reduced fetal growth, biological and neurological problems that follow the child for life.

What you can do?

For the world to continue to love and protect vulnerable babies, we need to make things right, put an end to all trauma and mistreatment, and bring unconditional love and protection to their experiences. Radiate feelings from your deepest heart, let their inner child know they are eternally loved eternally protected and eternally supported by you by accepting their truth of experiences without a doubt. Even if it means having empathy to the fact that adoptees have the right to view their truth of believing that they would have been better off aborted. So with every cell of your body, fill yourself with the deep warmth, comfort and peace adoptees in a soft blanket of unconditional love and kindness, so they feeling completely validated, safe, secure, loved and protected, feeling the earth able to hold them in its consciousness.

It’s extremely important to understand how these timelines work, when these aspects of our Inner Child or Self fragment, Souls are splintered through timelines, especially when deep wounds are left unresolved and unhealed. These traumas create holes and tears in emotional physical and psychological well being. It’s obvious to the people who hold compassion that these experiences create unresolved issues on the astral plane while perpetuating unhealthy attachments on this one.

Is it any wonder adoptee’s think it’s not worth it!

To get to the root of the issues, we ALL have to see the situation for what it is, then handle it so that it doesn’t keep showing up in other forms. Admit their life’s journey is not like any other before. Ultimately allowing the vulnerable to get their life and Soul identity back. Allow them to cut their own path even if it means wading through our collective muddied egos on their way back to their true self.